DISENGAGE

I listen to music to escape, to have it help make the world a little bit easier to survive thru with ... not needing to have my heart constantly heartbroken, being anxious about how they could survive, and how they have been surviving, and most of the unspoken behind-the-scenes machinations are so utterly distracting, and seriously hampering me being able to enjoy the music.

Feeling helpless to do anything else besides speculating in the wind, about the unknown facts, letting myself feel insecure and not confident of my own abilities in life = this is bullshit.

So whatever is happening, whatever the hustle, whatever the side-plans and more plans are, I find myself disengaging, and you know what? I will not be missed, even if I missed them already.